Ariana Grande capped off a whirlwind 2018 by accepting Billboard's Woman of the Year award at Thursday's Women in Music event. "I want to say that I find it interesting that this has been one of the best years of my career and the worst of my life", she admitted.
"This is really special".
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"I'm very grateful", Grande told the crowd, after saying she felt "completely undeserving" of the honor. The 25-year-old pop star attended the event in a purple loofa-looking dress and shared a lengthy speech about her turbulent year and how despite her killer success, she really has no idea what she's doing. I'm just saying that because I think a lot of people would look at someone in my position right now ... and think, 'She's really got her s- together, ' ya know?
Ariana Grande has reflected on the last 12 months, which she's described as "one of the best years of her career, and the worst of her life".
She continued: "So yeah... it's been a very conflicting one, and I just want to say that if you're someone out there who has no idea what this next chapter is going to bring, you're not alone in that".
Grande concluded her speech on a feminist note: "I look forward to hopefully learning to give some of the love and forgiveness that I have given away so frivolously and easily to men in the past to myself this year".